Feeling Down

A feel of very down

Actually I am still wondering want to have a job during my holiday or not.. But now I am very sure that I am gonna to work when I am back to my hometown during my holiday! Why I say so? It's all because I felt I have been left out. Is it my visibility that low? I hate to being left out la! WTF! I hate that kind of feeling to the max! 

Actually I used to be like this for every time we hang out but last time it was really very terrible! I felt that I am not the member of that gang.. I take you all as my good friends but what you guys did to me was not take me as your friend!

When i was back last time to have my holiday, you all promised me that will have a meet up and said that will meet me in that day. But what you all had done is let me wait you all for the whole day alone at there! Besides that, you guys not even inform me that you all are not coming to meet me. The worst is that every time you all just ignore me when I ask question in our group. OKAY! FINE! I am not going to meet you guys up for this coming holiday unless you come visit me while I am working!

 I really can't stand for it anymore! It really seems like I am just a stranger of that group. IT FEELS BAD! Other than that, every year, every time I do remember all of yours birthday and you guys do remember others birthday too EXCEPT ME! It's really WTF! I think this year must be the same as I have started my second semester before my birthday. So obviously you wont celebrate my birthday earlier as you will said that I have forgot about your birthday bla bla bla. 

I hate to be left out! I hate to be ignored by others! I hate that feelings! WTF!!!!!!!